My reflections below are inspired by the play “Behind Closed Doors” by the Moscow Theater in the South-West, based on the play of the same name by J-P. Sartre. The action takes place in one room, the ceiling of which is so low that it can be touched with an outstretched hand. One of the heroines, Ines, demonstrates this by standing at full height and resting her outstretched arm on the ceiling, which deliberately emphasizes the limited space and creates a feeling of lack of air. This room resembles a coffin, and it must be said that this association arises not without reason, because everyone in this room has already died. Successively, Garcin, who worked as a journalist during his lifetime, appears in the room, Ines, who in turn worked as a postal worker, and Estelle, who during her lifetime was married to a wealthy elderly man. The room is locked. Once you enter, you cannot leave. The answer is that all of them, Garcin, Ines and Estelle, go to Hell after death. And this Hell does not lie in the braziers and copper funnels that Garcin immediately asks about, expecting to see them in the room. Hell is in the inability to be alone, in the doom of looking for one’s reflection in the eyes of others, in the inability to leave the room even if there is a way out. At some point, the door opens, but none of the heroes leaves. It often happens that a person finds himself locked in his own mental Hell. And it seems impossible to get out. The reasons why a person chooses to stay “behind closed doors” vary. One of the reasons may be moral masochism: an unconscious feeling of guilt forces one to constantly plunge into suffering. To atone for guilt, a person again and again faces displeasure, for example, being seriously ill for a long time. However, since the feeling of guilt is unconscious, it is not so easy to discern the reason behind the façade of suffering on your own without professional help. Or another illustration. The girl cannot imagine herself without a relationship. As soon as one relationship ends, she immediately has an urgent need to immediately find a new partner. The problem is that what she is looking for cannot be called a relationship: in a relationship, she is not looking for pleasure from interacting with another and knowing another, but care, the very care that she lacked from her mother. She tends to arrange various tests for her partner, and if he does not meet her expectations, she regards this as confirmation of her guess that he does not love her. So, any of her partners is obviously doomed to failure. The partner's suffering, in turn, gives the girl pleasure. Behind these numerous checks lies the girl’s aggression towards her mother and her desire to take revenge on her mother for the lack of attention - this is what forces her to stay in that very “room”. And even the door is not locked, I don’t want to go out at all. To sign up for my consultation (the first consultation is free), fill out the form or just write to me on WhatsApp or Telegram: 8-929-588-53-17 Looking forward to our meetings, Daria