EVAPORATING PEOPLE.. Who are they? I want to return to the post about shame and “evaporating people”. Please read this post about SHAME first. https://www.b17.ru/ article/297741/?prt=340407And then you will be able to understand the continuation of today. I confess not for the first time to you that my defense mechanism in life was to live in a “state of steam.” This mechanism saved me from fears and shame. I had to be in such a state of “to be and not to be” at the same time in contact with people important to me. I needed them and therefore “was”. But in order for me to withstand my own and other people’s feelings of pain, fear, shame, anger and helplessness, I shrank and stopped feeling, feeling my body, but not completely to “be”. This same state can be compared to freezing or a hologram. Without this mechanism, I would have died. It was important for me to maintain CONNECTION with my loved ones. But for many years this same mechanism prevented me from feeling life, prevented me from giving up and “going” to another “world” - my true one identity. I lived for so long as if in a trap. And recently I encountered this mechanism again, but only in the form of a projection onto others. My husband, whom I felt like a hologram. He exists and it is as if he is not there. When you are in contact with such a person, you have the feeling “I don’t know what to expect”, “I can’t rely on”, “suddenly disappears”, “he thinks only about himself”, “he doesn’t need me”, etc. d. I hope that you understand me if this was your experience. The work is like a hologram when there are clients and when they are not. The feeling of your place at work in the office when you arrive and your place is occupied. Another time you come like it’s normal - it’s yours, and then it’s busy again. Or in other relationships, etc. This is a projection of myself, a part of myself that I didn’t notice. I began to work with this insight in a process approach (in independent work) .I drew a hologram with a gray pencil on paper. Then I began to imagine the hologram in great detail so that I could directly feel it down to the smallest detail. I heard interference, like interruption of signals (radio and video signals, hissing, crackling). I entered this interference with movements. My hands trembled, shook. And just the movement awakened something in me. This movement, like a stun gun, excited me life. It was strong, sharp, connecting or conducting current, blood, CONNECTIONS. The connections were restored and I felt more like myself. Like in intensive care they resuscitate a dying person. In the same way, I found the point of my reanimation from the hologram. The energy of electricity is my source. And it was the sharp movement of the shudder that activated this electricity. Let me remind you that animals have a mechanism for shaking off the stress that accumulates in the muscles. The animal mechanism of discharge is exactly similar to mine. This is him. Of course, the exercise has not yet been completed. And this is good, because for a quality restoration I can’t rush, because this is already another pattern of mine))) But if I dream further, I can outline the trajectory of the influence of my electricity on relationships with my husband, with clients, with my place of work, etc. .“First reconnect with yourself, your own connections. Then external relations will also change.” If my approach to work suits you, welcome❤Pm me.