Every time you make acquaintances with people and get to know them more and more, you begin to secretly hate them. But you do this not even because you consider them more capable and more successful than you in some way, but because their egoism is stronger than yours, because they are more willing to show their will. You are not ready to admit people have the right to win, because you think that this will be your defeat. You are not ready to praise them because you think that you will get lost in their background. After all, it always seems to you that you are not noticeable and not heard by others, since your words and actions are not considered significant for anyone. With your fear you have protected yourself from the whole world, but you never stop wanting it to accept you and give you its love. But all you need to achieve what you want is to simply start giving love to the world from yourself, without expecting anything in return. Do something kind and pleasant for other people and get pleasure from the fact that you can please them. In order not only to think in a similar vein, but also to begin to act, you first need to learn how to be fulfilled from yourself and become self-sufficient. To do this, you need to stop building vain expectations and inventing false attachments. You just need to realize: you already have what you need. Your best condition has already arrived. Then you will be happy. Your spirituality is now only in its infancy, but this is not a sentence or a final state. Remember that while you are living, you are moving, that is why it is considered life. The same thing that is defined as death is a stop, and there you can no longer change anything. You can start all over again, but try to do it differently than you did last time. Try to start doing something that is difficult and uninteresting for you. You are used to doing the same thing, but you think that you are in harmony. This is only because you did not find a reason to live differently, and did not check whether your state was so harmonious. Carrying out your research, you again used the powers of your mind and logic, but not your soul, as I asked you. That’s all. , how I can help you here is to give advice. To follow the spiritual path that you so desire to comprehend, you do not need to be afraid of strengthening your spirit, you do not need to be afraid to give it work. He never gets tired, he just hardens. Therefore, stop being so afraid for yourself. Spirituality is determined by a person’s aspirations, the purity of his thoughts. The one who is not afraid of darkness will not be afraid of the Truth - the one who is filled with light and sees in everything manifestations of the law and the higher will. Find what is the center of your world, where all roads connect into one, what is closest to you for now, and use it to open your heart. This is the only way you will learn to activate the powers of the soul before the powers of the mind are used. You will find even more useful texts for immersing yourself in your subconscious and better understanding yourself in the course “From Resistance to Acceptance”"