Back in 2010, out of habit, I was hanging out on a dating site in search of the next adventure, and it happened. I met a girl, got to talking, and she invited me to a therapy group. Of course, I had little idea of ​​what would happen there, but the desire to somehow change my life was stronger than the fear of the unknown. Before that, many events took place in my life that could hardly be called joyful. A difficult divorce, after which I spent a couple of years slowly killing myself with food and alcohol. After two years of such a life, I was already close to death, I could only weigh myself on industrial scales, because not a single household scale was designed for a weight of more than 180 kilograms. Having weighed myself once and seeing the figure of 188 kg, I decided that nothing would help me. and continued to kill himself further. Weighing ourselves was simply scary. I think my weight is close to 200 kg and most likely has crossed this line. I moved with great difficulty, but the thirst for life still lived somewhere deep in me, without outside help I managed to lose weight to 150 kg and practically give up alcohol, but it was difficult alone and gradually I again began to drink more and more and gain weight. After all, I dealt with all the problems alone, without support. My environment didn’t see this as a big problem. More like the crab bucket theory, it pulled me back. I tried to get out, looked for different ways. Although I didn’t get fat again to a weight of 200 kg, there was a tendency to gain weight; I was already 165 kg again. I decided to take a weight loss course, in a couple of months I lost 24 kg, it turned out that life is wonderful and amazing, that women can like me and quite a lot of them appeared in my life, it was a fun time. My euphoria lasted for a year and a half. After all, after a short course, which gave a certain impetus to changes, I was again left alone with my problems, in a familiar environment. The main thing is that my psychological reasons for excess weight remained in place, and the weight began to grow again. It was at that moment that my fateful meeting on the Internet happened. The group became for me the support resource that I sorely lacked. It started quite late, at 20.00, lasted three hours and, accordingly, ended at 23.00. It was November, dark, cold, late, but I happily ran to the group. I needed it. I believed in psychotherapy. In May of the following year I went to my first intensive course, and at the end of the intensive course I decided to go to study in the Gestalt program. That year was a year of very drastic changes in my life. At the same time, I began training in the basic program in Gestalt therapy, specializing in family therapy, began personal therapy, and entered college to major in psychology. Time flew by very quickly, I graduated from college, received a diploma, completed several specializations and special courses. Now I’m writing this, and it’s hard to believe that this is possible. But the fact is the fact. Now I lead groups, conduct personal therapy, and give lectures. At the recent Smolensk Gestalt Conference, I conducted the “Metamorphoses” workshop. Where did participants explore what was hiding their excess weight? They know me not only in Smolensk, but also in other cities. I have something to be proud of, something to praise myself for. My weight is still not ideal, but I have more mobility and strength now than 10 years ago. Weight loss, increased mobility, side effect of psychotherapy. When you sort out your emotional blockages, when you begin to understand yourself more. I want to regulate my condition less and less in destructive ways. I am glad that I had the chance to change my life. It's great that I was in the right place at the right time. My life has changed, the quality of life has changed, shades and undertones have appeared, people have appeared with whom I can talk, prospects have appeared. I am grateful to the people who supported me, taught me, were with me and remain now. As I write this, tears well up in my eyes. I would like to say to those who doubt)